So I still havent gotten up the courage to tell most of my family or our friends we are expecting again.(we are just shy of 15 weeks)Not that I think they wont be happy for us but in part because I feel slightly guilty.I know what Joss and I have gone through the last year this feels like somehow the perfect ending to it.Back in October we were 11 weeks pregnant and lost our baby with no apparent reason or warning it was the single most devistating and emotional time of my life so far.horrible to expierence the death of a child that way.But I have a friend who has been tring to conceive for almost the 5 years we have been married they have undergone so much on their journey to try and get a baby and have suffered emotional losses again and again over and over.How guilty I feel to be blessed with my 3rd pregnancy (Josiah,our angel,and now this one)in just two short years I admidt it hasnt been the ideal situation for us either I struggle with Pcos with can cause problems in pregnancy and in even getting pregnant,but with following diets and also taking medication and trying to live healthier I have been able to conceive on our own.I still feel guilty I wish badly she could have a child and I believe one day she will but I know seeing us live this season in our life has to be brutely painful.I am so sorry and I pray for her situation each day believeing GOd works miracles and that she is just waiting for her little miracle,however sometimes I think the waiting can be the worst.I am attaching a link to a small video at the bottom,I cried watching this video because everyword was as if it was spoken directly from her.God please bless this family,allow them to have the joy I am expieriencing and help me to be a friend and shoulder for her to cry on till you do .
jeremiah 29:11
I know the plans I have for you says the LOrd plans to prosper you and not to harm you,plans to give you a future and hope.
http://www.tearsandhope.com/emptyarms_video.html
